Selfish mo, kala ko ba kaibigan tayo;'(

He was just my childhood friend. We met when i was 10 years old and he had vacation in our place and now we're in college. I haven't seen him for almost 7 years and i almost forget about him. He went back to our place and insisted that we are a childhood friend "okay!! I enrolled in summer class and wasn't able to spend time with him. It was then June 2011 when we get to know each other more & bad thing about it he stay in the boarding house where my x resided together with a freak girl. I didn't expected that 'whatttah small world 0_o
He said he likes me "okay!! but i don't believe on that. He asked to go out with me, i said sure y not' what are friends for. but here comes a witch, an interruptus wants to go with us 'so freak!! We watch basketball but he's late. its ok doesn't matter at all. I invited him to go night swimming so that we can spend more time with each other 'still an interruptus  gets in. She also go with us. There in the beach i wasn't able to go near beside him coz ayaw ng girl umalis sa tabi nya. Nakatingin lang po siya sakin. Ok lang , kami sana magkasama nun. Nakita q silang naghahalikan sa tubig, sabay landi ng babae. Nagpaplayo siya kaso sumusunod namn ung girl. @ ako nasa tabi nakatingin lang buti mai mga kaibigan aqng kasama. Ang sakit habang tinititigan ko sila, habang naalala qong oras namin un eh. Umuwi kami, lagi nya kong tinitingnan, Sakit kaya! Nasayang lang ung oras ko. Ung emotion d pa nagsink in pag-uqi ko sa bahay sabay tumulo ung luha ko. Ba't ganun unfair moh, d naman pwedeng magselos kc kaibigan lang kaibigan lang talaga. Nagtxt xa d nq nagreply. Pinakita ko tlaga na ok lang. Friday night out with my friends, since nakakapuyat maging isang student nurse pinagplanuhan naming gumala.
I was drunk and he txted me san daw ako. saby reply nasa bar punta ka rito. pumunta din xa. Kasayaw ko kaibigan ko hinila nya ko papunta sa kanya sabi nya dito kalang sa tabi ko. Sumayaw poh kami akap nya poh aq ng mahigpit hingi ng sorry sa nangyari. Ok lang walang kaso un. D na nya ako bintawan sabay halik ... . . Tapus pagkabukas parang wla lang...We remain friends parin ;'( tapus nalaman ko lang sila na. He made me special as if I am, tapus naging ok parin sakin ang lahat. iniwasan qong etxt. Ayaw ng mga friends ko sa kanya. Sobrang bait ko lang daw. D k kayang iwan eh alam ko kc pinagdaanan nya. Daming negative comment sa kanya. pasaway kc. Di pumasok daming bisyo .sabi nga nila I'm too good for him! ... tapus niyaya nya kong mamasyal sabi ko ok.txt mo lang ako. naghintaypoh ako ng ilang oras,  tapus tumulo luha ko poh, kc sabi ng kaibigan ko.."gaga ka tlaga noh iiyak iyak ka jan tapus cla ditu nagkukurutan? dun sabi ko SPECIAL lang ba ako pag wala siya? pag malungkot ka? pag wla kanang malapitan..sakit noh .OPtion ika nga. Sabi ng kaibigan qong lalaki " tama na han. swerte nya sayu and he just wasted it! lang kwenta un... Heto ako ngayon. . trying to forget him but still i'll cherish the friendship someday he'll realize he need a love like mine...Kaya poh sa mga taong binigyan ng halaga wa nyo pong abusuhin ha kc poh sa isang iglap lang mababago ang lahat di mo lang namamalayan!!